Your Thoughts and Prayers

I want to thank each and every one of you for all your support, thoughts and prayers throughout this extremely difficult time. It was truly appreciated and needed.  After spending a week in Vermont, Hunter and I are home.

I still feel like the whole thing has just been a very bad dream.  Like, I don’t think that she is gone for forever, ya know.  I feel like she is just in the hospital and will be home any time.  Its been two weeks since that awful phone call and so I wonder, when does it all really set in?  I figured it would have after the wakes, funeral, and spending time in her house without her.  But I still can’t wrap my head around it.

The autopsy reported she died from pericarditis as a complication of her pregnancy.  It also revealed the baby she was carrying was a boy.

Joe is doing about as well as could probably be expected.  He’s not going to go back to work overseas, so he’ll be home taking care of Falyn and Hunter.  And I’ve offered to help him out as much as I can, I do love that little girl.  I can’t even imagine how hard it must be for him.  Hunter has been doing well.  He did attend the wakes and funeral because she was his step mom after all and it was Joe’s wishes that he attended.  There was a grief counselor on site up until after the funeral and he spent a lot of time with Hunter.  He said that Hunter was “right on track” for his age in the grieving department.  Its amazing how kids handle and think in these types of situations because it is so very different from adults.

So, we are home, although we will be going back to Vermont next week for the week, but you will see more of me now.  I’m still grieving so I apologize in advance.  This is probably one of the hardest deaths I’ve ever had to deal with before.  And again, I just want to thank you all for your thoughts and prayers…none of them went unnoticed or unappreciated.  I even had Joe read my last post and all your comments.  So, if you could still continue to keep Joe, Falyn, Hunter and Tania’s family- who have shown remarkable strength- in your prayers I would be forever grateful.