Ever feel like you’re just going through the motions of your life? Like your life is just routine? I’ve been feeling this way for some time now. I don’t want in 40 years to reflect back on my life and think it was boring, uneventful, or meaningless. I feel like my life is flashing past me and that I’m not living it to its full potential. I’ve always wanted to live an amazing life that I could sit and tell my grand kids about and have them in awe. I mean, have I really accomplished anything? And if I think, and I mean really think, I come up with nothing. My life is not exciting. It seems to be so ordinary, which isn’t necessarily a bad thing, but its not how I want it to be. I know that only I have the power to change it. But then the thoughts of “how do i change it?” and “what do i want to do?” pop into play and I can’t think of answers to either one of those questions. I know that I want to experience everything that I can. I want to absorb all of life’s offerings. What I don’t want is to live the simple, ordinary, uneventful life I’ve led so far.
I’ve noticed myself becoming more withdrawn in my personal life as well as within the online community. I’m not sure if it has to do with me wanting more out of my life or the fact that I suffer from depression and have been clean of meds for a while. Either way I’m not happy. Okay, that’s not entirely true. Sure I’m happy that I have my son because that alone is a blessing and that we’re both healthy. But I’m not happy with my life’s direction.
You know what I would honestly love to do? I would love to host a show on the Travel Channel. I actually have a great idea for one too. That to me would be the ultimate gig on tv. Anyways, I need to start living my life to the fullest. I need to figure out how to stop feeling like I’m just going through the motions while my life passes me by.
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I am feeling the same way. HUGS!!!! I know I need my meds but cant afford the doctors visit or the perscription. Hoping his military coverages starts sooner rather than later. I hope you can find what you are looking for
I think we all feel this way from time to time. I hope you can find what you’re looking for. And just remember, I said “no!”
((((hugs)))))
First you have to choose. Then, just do it.
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Oh I’ve been feeling this way my self lately so I really know what you’re saying. My problem is the getting started. I feel overwhelmed and just don’t know how to make the steps to stop feeling this way.
I think we all go through this sometime in our lives. I feel the same way a lot of the time. I think that’s why I love traveling so much, it’s a small taste of going other places and seeing other ways of living, but you can still come home to the safety and security that you know and love!
One way to feel that your life has taken on new meaning is to find a cause your interested in and get involved. That can make for great stories for the grandkids too.
I sometimes think of this column by Erma Bombeck.
I gave my notice at work today. I have nothing lined up, no plans and I’m terrified. Like a few others here I’ve struggled with depression (med free since 2004). I don’t know what my strengths are or have any idea what I want to do.
Hell, I’m impressed with what you’ve let yourself experience so far, your willingness to open up to the world, and your commitment (you’ve been doing this how long now? I can’t even finish a cross-stitch ornament!)
If I knew the steps to happiness I’d share them. As it is I can only offer my warm wishes that the small joys can keep you going long enough for you to make some larger ones.
I have those feelings ALL the TIME! I hear ya… hang in there… something amazing is bound to happen for us both!
Hugs hun! I ALWAYS feel like this too. Especially right now when my whole life is in Limbo.. Sucks and I want to pull out of it!